Love is Waiting

I suddenly felt a surge of emotion in my heart last night, that it was threatening to burst on me and make me spill words that I've been mostly afraid to admit to anyone whenever I start to feel it, during the course of my life. I suddenly had this longing inside me to tell what I feel, but then something inside me tells that it's not yet the right time. I changed my ym status to "I feel like my heart's gonna burst" and it immediately attracted the attention of close friends added in my ym list. Nix, being the polite girl she is, checked what's with it right away without asking too much info that might sound like she's prying on something very personal already. That's what I like about her. I told her it is indeed too personal that I think I can't share it to anyone at the moment and that the status just tells what I currently feel... I just don't feel comfy sharing it with anyone at the moment. I was praying for God's take on this and was asking Him to give me an immediate answer if possible because I was at that moment struggling of what's trying to burst my heart out.

I could've easily spilled this to that person had I not been able to hold it, thanks to Nix for being fast in asking :D. I can't give info to her, but I know the girl has a quite good intuition so I asked her what does she feel about it, and maybe we can start from there, so that I can also help myself. She then started off with checking how things are going. Then I told her I currently feel that my feelings are trying to overrule my mind. She quoted a line from the movie Fireproof: "Don't follow your heart because your heart can be deceived." Agree naman ako sa sinabi nya, and it felt like those few words made the juices in my brain flow to let me think clearly about the situation. I have to wait on God first. Patience. She also told me that God sometimes speak to her through songs and gave me two Brooke Fraser songs that I might want to check, "Faithful" and "Love is Waiting". My eyes caught the "Love is Waiting" first and searched for it in Youtube. And upon checking out the message, I can say it describes exactly what I felt I need to do.. or to say.

In the autumn on the ground,
between the traffic and the ordinary sounds
I am thinking signs and seasons while a north wind blows through
I watch as lovers pass me by
Walking stories - whos and hows and whys
Musing lazily on love, pondering you

I'll give it time, give it space and be still for a spell
When it's time to walk that way we wanna walk it well

[CHORUS:]
I'll be waiting for you baby
I'll be holding back the darkest night
Love is waiting til we're ready, til it's right
Love is waiting

It's my caution not the cold
There's no other hand that I would rather hold
The climate changes, I'm singing for the strangers about you
Don't keep time, slow the pace
Honey hold on if you can
the bets are getting surer now... that you're my man

[CHORUS]

[BRIDGE:]
I could write a million songs about the way you say my name
I could live a lifetime with you and then do it all again
and like I can't force the sun to rise or hasten summer's start,
neither should I rush my way into your heart

I was like... this is bull's eye. Shot right at the target. LoL! Ganda pa ng pagkakanta. And after listening to the song, I felt peace in my heart, and it got tamed. I chose to keep singing this song while I pray to God to let me know when would be the right time to reveal anything and how I should do it.

Love is patient. ~1 Corinthians 13:4

A Note to God About Committing with Someone

Dear God,

I am about to be ready to commit myself to someone I fell in love with. Could I take him now? I have prayed for him for quite a time already.


But God said:

Not now, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and content with being loved by me alone. You need to give yourself to me--totally unreserved--because only in me your satisfaction is to be found. And when you learn to commit yourself to me alone, only then is the right time for you to be capable of a perfect human relationship that I have planned for you, long before you thought about it. You will never be united with another until you are united with me. You will never learn to speak and understand the true language of love until you hear me speak it. You will never learn how it is to love and be loved until you feel the tender touch of my LOVE.

I want you to stop planning. Stop wishing and allow me to step in and give you the most surprising and exciting plan that you can imagine. You are my child. I want you to have the best. Please allow me to bring it to you. Fix your eyes on me and expect the greatest things as you watch. Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I AM. Learn all the things I tell you and be patient. Just wait.

Don’t be anxious. Don’t worry. Don’t look around and wish for things others may have got. Yours will be different because I LOVE YOU. Don’t look at things you think you want. They may not be the things I want for you. Look up straight at me because you might miss what I want to show you.

And then when you’re ready, I’ll surprise you with a lover far more wonderful than what you would ever dream of. But I won’t let you have it until you are ready and the one I have prepared for you is ready, until you are both satisfied exclusively with me and the LIFE I have prepared for you.

FIND ME... AND EVERYTHING ELSE THAT YOU THINK YOU NEED WILL BE PUT INTO YOUR LIFE! (Delight your self in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart -Psalm 37:4)

Yours truly,
God

This is some letter I found online ages ago, written by someone anonymous. I had this saved in my old blog and still finds it true at this time. I know people will always have this longing for someone to share the rest of their life with but truly, until we learn the same kind of love that God has, we will not be able to achieve this fulfilling kind of love that we want to share with a partner. Because God has the perfect love.

Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. ~John 15:13